i just need a getaway, really. i stuffed all up deep inside just so that i wont offend someone but as usual no one cares.
i tried to control my ego. i tried to calm myself down whenever i feel to blow up. i tried to understand you. i tried but you waste all my effort. you put all the blame on me. you made me feel like i'm the bad one. im trying to understand you but as usual you build such a high wall not even try to let me climb it and you blame me.
i tried to love you just like how we used to but everytime i did that you pushed me away. you treat me like i just ditch you. fuck. i have my own feelings too! why cant you just understand me too? why we are not like we used to? everytime we are on phone, you will talk less. i do the talk. you used to be someone cheerful. someone that i used to inspired myself whenever im down but i guess i just lost that person. i dont know where did i left him. i miss the old you so bad.