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him: hey, uhm i wanna ask smthg..

me: what is it?

him: so do you think i have another girl besides you?

me: ...

yeah, i might answered you saying that no because i know you wouldnt and if you would i dont think so because it is just my paranoid feeling. but honestly babe, deep inside my heart im scared. im scared to know the truth. im scared if what youre asking is real and you just wanna know hows my reaction. well honestly, im not ready for that. im not ready for me to let you go to other people and i dont think i will ever ready because i dont want to. 

i know ive made mistakes that hurts you but i cant face the day that youre saying you have someone else. it might break me. i just really hope i can made up to you for all ive done. i dont know if you notice this or not but im trying to control my ego. you know how hard is that right? im not that type of girl who will talk to someone after shes mad at them. im the type that once you break me, youre no one to me.

but if its true then i deserved that. but, i hope no. tsk i love you boo ><