after all the mess i put up i finally realize. ive made the wrong choice, i mean i chose the wrong way. ive made him upset all this way and i didnt even give a damn abt him. he've been coping up all this sadness alone and im not there for him. i didnt listen to what he said to me bcs i thought i knew it better. but, actually he was right. how sad i am.
i feel bad for myself. i neglected him just to satisfies myself. i ignore his advice just to know that so called nice guy better. i fell in his trap and made the one i love the most suffer. but despite of all the things ive done, he still with me. help me when i fall. lead me when i lose my way. being there for me just like he always do. never leave me eventho he hurt that bad. why am i so mean?
he can sacrifies too many things for me but me? 😔😔